Unit 6 Assesment and Exercise

 

Hello everyone, after completing the loving-kindness exercise, I felt happy, almost like I had done a good thing, even though I wasn’t actually helping anyone achieve health, happiness, and wholeness. It seemed kind of cheesy to me after I thought about it, and I felt kind of silly, but even then I was in a better mood than before. I think it was just a really positive exercise and therefore made my attitude positive. Really, I feel like when you do anything that is selfless or for the sake of someone else’s welfare, you’re most likely going to feel good afterwards. When I did the self-assessment I wasn’t sure what aspect of my life needed more healing than the others. I wasn’t sure which aspect was the source of my suffering or difficulty. I had to think about this for a while, I decided that I’m not really suffering anymore and I am more in a healing stage, and have been for over a month now. Also, I have been working on all the aspects of my life because I felt like they all needed some work. The second part of the assessment was to decide what the development or healing would entail or look like. I’ve been doing lots of things to heal, mostly biological healing. My diet has changed considerably and I can tell I have improved, I went back to the gym and that made me feel so much better as well. I’ve also been very true to who I am in a positive way, which I believe has more to do with the interpersonal/worldly/psychospiritual aspects of my life. Pretending to be something that I am not is an awful idea and I think it can really cut a person down. An exercise that I have done this past month was not one that had been given during the course. When I have been in social situations and someone says something to me, I take my time to answer; first of all I think this in itself is true to who I am because I know I am not quick witted and I know I am eager to please others, so taking time to reflect on what someone has said and how it makes me feel is important part of responding properly. Second of all it gives me time to remember to be true to who I am and actually say how I really feel instead of how I think the other person wants me to feel. For instance the other day at work a guy started talking about our boss behind his back and began to say negative things about him. I reflected on how it made me feel internally and I could feel myself slipping into a verbal head lock. I very nicely said to the guy that I thought our boss was a very caring boss who actually takes into consideration the troubles of his employees and that I was thankful I had a boss like that rather than one who doesn’t care about anything but money, and I even gave examples of how our boss had cared for his employees. Afterwards I felt like I had finally done the right thing, said the right thing, and had been honest about how I felt for once. It broke down a kind of wall for me and I felt like I could more easily do it again.